I just spent the past two hours cleaning up my room! I am amazed at the amount of space it has now.
I went for a job interview last Wednesday and had another one this afternoon. I know, my earnestness surprises me even. I'm currently looking for non-permanent jobs, just some work to do to tide me over the break before I step into University *crosses fingers*.
Which brings me to the purpose of this post. Bear with me for a little while, I just need another outlet to sort my thoughts/life out.
I'm admittedly a little lost when it comes to what I want to do and the courses to take. I sort of made up my mind to go overseas, but now a part of me wants to stay here in Singapore as well.
I'm geared towards advertising and writing, but even then I'm unsure which, and will I like doing it full-time?
I thought designing was an area worth pursuing since I was in Year 2 of my studies, and based on the grades that I had for creative modules, I was more than sure it was for me. Then I tried it full-time and found [disappointedly] that it was not my thing after all.
So I'm back to square one. Where do I go? What do I do? How much money will I [more like my parents] have to invest further? I think some of my other course mates are facing the same predicament as I am right now too, based on my conversations with them.
So let's make it easier. Do what you love. Let's talk about this thing called 'Passion'. I have a love-hate relationship with this 'Passion'. Hell, if it's that easy then we wouldn't have miserable people in the world then, would we?
My most obvious passion is with fashion. I want to buy it, analyse it, decide for it, style it, WRITE about it. I want to start as a fashion journalist, moonlight as a stylist and end up chief editor of my own cutting-edge online magazine, and retire a millionaire.
This probably explains my intense hunger to just do something. Since my break period is a mere 2 to 3 months only, what I could do that could prove helpful [like another internship] is very limited.
So now I'm helping out a fellow friend who wants to explore fashion photography and I'm hoping to secure a retail job for now. And of course, more fashion-related posts I hope. So anyone who wants a hungry freelance fashion writer please approach!
Regarding getting a degree in fashion management or the like, I probably have to draft up a lengthy, super convincing speech about why it isn't a folly decision to my parents who will be horribly aghast at the mere mention of it. I think I'd also feel more secure continuing to a mass communication degree, or even one in journalism. But then again, who knows how I'm going to decide later on *shrugs*.
Then there is that other passion. I tried pursuing it, but things didn't always seem to go my way :s. We'll see how.
Trust me, this is rare. I think it's the period talking.
If you read this far, here's a photo.
Does a moody, spaced-out, looking-out-because-I'm-deep-in-thought Lazareanu shoot seem too cliche?